Today has become another one of my "2 posts" days. If you haven't noticed the last few days have been kind of "fluffed" and didn't really seem to have a solid point (although I think they were still interesting).
To be honest, I have been feeling really depressed and racking my brain trying to figure out why. I am traveling next week and always get some level of anxiety, but that doesn't seem to be it. Josh and I are still adjusting to our new location, but that isn't it either. Of course I miss my family and friends who are back home, but that again is not what has me feeling so blue.
Today I got to the point where I was ready to just let myself wallow in my sadness since I could not figure out exactly what the cause is. Then I spent some time scrolling through Facebook and realized that I have every right to be sad! There is so much to be sad about happening right now, not only in the lives of people I know, but in our world as a whole.
Police officers are losing their lives through pointless violence, races are at odds for reasons I don't think anyone truly has a firm grasp on, kids are being sold into sex trafficking and the list goes on. In the lives of people I know there is loss of loved ones, fear of the future, and horrible diseases.
So of course I am sad! My heart bleeds over these horrible circumstances and I am overcome with sadness. However, while I am numbed by my sadness and inability to fix the way I feel, I get to rest assured and confident that God is in control. Even in the times I don't understand, much like right now, I know that He has a plan for everything.
So even though in this moment I am unable to shake this feeling, I know that ultimately everything is going to be OK.
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