Who am I?

Have you ever struggled with the question, “Who am I?” Lately, I have been pondering this question and frustrated by my inability to come up with an answer.

I do not want to be defined by my career, or any various relationship. I am more than just a wife, daughter, sister, and entrepreneur. Yet, I am unable to come up with a definition that fits, and makes me feel complete.

Yesterday in particular, I was really struggling with the question, and truthfully it was starting to make me upset. So I decided to journal. The act of writing the thoughts as they flow through my head, at times has been able to help me figure out the things I was struggling with.

My journal isn’t typical like it used to be. I don’t write line by line like I used to. Instead I turn the journal at various points, and let the flow of my thoughts dictate how I write on the page. Yesterday I wrote “WHO AM I?” in purple pen in the center of the page. Then I spent some time filling in the empty space, turning the direction I wrote based on concluding thoughts.

I was amazed by this exercise.

It began with me almost unable to form a sentence, but ended with me actually finding the answer I was searching for.

“Who am I?” is a question that can only be answered by the Creator. God is the only one who can give me a definition that is fulfilling. I will never feel satisfied by my career title, the titles I am given by those around me, or even the ones society gives out. God is the only one who can search the depths of my soul and provide me with a fulfilling answer to the question I am unable to let go of.

Pretty amazing what can happen when you open up your thoughts and just spend some time wading through your ideas. God will meet you where you are at, and it’s amazing when that happens.